Oh how my heart longs for you
My heart aches for your love
Though we haven’t been apart for much time
To me, every second without you is painful
For you, time goes at its normal pace
You don’t realize the hold you have on my heart
Attempting to make you notice fails time after time
Longing for your affection and getting denied
Slowly boundaries around my heart go up
When you finally feel what I have been feeling and long for my love
My heart doesn’t feel content
Walls around my heart go up
Tension and miscommunication builds on itself
Both hearts in pain
It’s time to let go of all worries and rationality. Feel the music running through every inch of your body. Let yourself move freely. Move your body with each beat and sound. Thinking of nothing but how the music makes you feel. Mimic the music with your body movements expressing how the song makes you feel through dance. Let the music echo through your heart. One song can mean completely different things to every person that listens to it. Hold on to that special feeling a song gives you and every time you replay the song, those special feelings will replay as well. We all have music playing in the background but every so often it’s important to listen to music to let your soul dance and have that moment of freedom.
How dare you leave me over and over again? Then try to enter back into my life a whole year later? What is the purpose? Did the friends you left me for leave you now? It's terrible how someone so close to you suddenly decides to leave your life without any reason. It really hurts. It's very upsetting how a friend that says they love you is okay with giving so much pain.
So many limitations.
Going against them only burn me, leaving me with scars.
Smart thing to do is to resist.
Resisting from experiences.
Resisting from urges.
Resisting from being impulsive.
Constantly having to do the right thing.
It gets mundane.
I’m filled with much guilt.
I’ve committed a mountain of sins.
Struggle after struggle reoccurring.
I finally walk on the right path.
Constantly doing my best.
I know what I’m doing is rewarding for my life.
I’ve changed who I am for heaven.
This is the right thing to do.
Alarms going off.
My mind is cloudy.
Why do I feel caged?
Confusion fills my heart.
Why do I feel caged?
It’s so tough putting yourself aside and taking care of someone else’s needs. It’s a huge burden on your shoulders. You avoid thinking of yourself and how much pain you’re in. Somehow, in that time you selflessly care for someone else and put yourself aside is the time you are growing in character.
Everyone encounters pain in some form. I have been given a heavy load of pain that I have to carry with me. Having pain sucks, A LOT and nobody likes that. It’s a rotten feeling that makes your world flip upside down. However, recently I’ve had a change of heart. I came to the realization that going through pain is what lead me to most of my successes. Having my heart broken pushed me to keep myself occupied with activities and hobbies. During that time I drowned myself in art, poetry, and fitness. I spent less time on my phone and more time strengthening my bonds with my family and friends. So, now when my heart is aching I know that it is not the end of the world. I am confident the pain will bring positive things my way.
The picture below is stunning, isn’t it? The sun rays give the photograph an abstract and majestic look. Think of the sun as your life, the clouds as your pain and the sun rays as your goals and achievements. The sun needs the clouds to create its rays.
The whole world is sound asleep
as I lie there wide awake.
Why can’t I sleep?
Pain invades my heart.
Teardrops roll down my face.
My heart aches.
My eyes blurred with water,
feeling like the last one on earth.
No one to catch me.
No one to read my pain.
The night becomes so damn long,
so damn quiet.
Why won’t my heart listen to my brain?
My mind and body want relief.
My mind wants to escape.
Dreams become my blanket.
A get away from my heart.
A momentary vacation to heal.
I use writing as an outlet when I feel like I can’t turn to anyone. Writing clears my mind and leads me to figure out what I really want or what I should do. Basically, it lets me look at my life from outside the box. Other than that, I believe writing that comes from the heart is a form of art. My favorite poet is Rumi because when he wrote he spilled his heart and soul into his works with so much wisdom. My passion for writing started when I was going through a repeated pattern of heartaches and needed to let out my pain. I would write my heart out, even if it didn’t make sense and by the end, it still made my heart feel lighter. Coming to the realization that I could let out my innermost thoughts and feelings without exposing myself is when I fell in love with writing. I am eager to enter the world of blogging to see how it will help me grow.